I made a very big decision and felt really lofty.
It took me several weeks before I finally had the spunk to throw away some of the clutters that has kept me from really moving forward. I lovingly dug my "baul" and looked at those things which never failed to remind me of my mistakes, hurts and triumphs and of those from whom I loved in the past.
I have written several times about how awful my day(s) have become because I let it be. I understand that it is not the issues that caused me to become some sort of a person I am not supposed to be but it is with how I respond to whatever fire thrown on my face.
As I dug, I caught myself getting a bit distracted of such harsh emotions that I had to wail to release such. I thought to myself, I let these things keep me from really moving on and from being a much better person so, I have to make a stand and free myself from such chains. I know I am doing the right thing as what Paul said in Ephesians - "You were taught, with regard to your former life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds."
I was still in my shilly-shally mode as I went out of our house, watched these clutters get burned and saw myself free from future "digging".
I know I am not yet completely free but I already took the first step.
A good start - deliverable indeed.
It took me several weeks before I finally had the spunk to throw away some of the clutters that has kept me from really moving forward. I lovingly dug my "baul" and looked at those things which never failed to remind me of my mistakes, hurts and triumphs and of those from whom I loved in the past.
I have written several times about how awful my day(s) have become because I let it be. I understand that it is not the issues that caused me to become some sort of a person I am not supposed to be but it is with how I respond to whatever fire thrown on my face.
As I dug, I caught myself getting a bit distracted of such harsh emotions that I had to wail to release such. I thought to myself, I let these things keep me from really moving on and from being a much better person so, I have to make a stand and free myself from such chains. I know I am doing the right thing as what Paul said in Ephesians - "You were taught, with regard to your former life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds."
I was still in my shilly-shally mode as I went out of our house, watched these clutters get burned and saw myself free from future "digging".
I know I am not yet completely free but I already took the first step.
A good start - deliverable indeed.
