Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Love after Love


Love after Love
By Derek Walcott


The time will come

when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.


Tuesday, December 23, 2008

2008 Thanks


Ever heard of the an old Christmas Song with lines “When you are weary and you can’t sleep just count your blessings instead of sheep…”? I just did that a couple of nights ago and yes, I fell asleep – fast.

And despite of such continuous challenging times, 2 nights ago was an apt reminder of how blessed I am. So, before I bid 2008 adieu, I made a list of things that made me forget (sometimes) all those seemingly endless Life's quizzes.

1. I have been saved by Someone greater than any of us – and it cost him His life.

2. My parents’ abundant love.

3. My siblings’ constant running to me – asking for inputs, whatever.

4. Hon’s super stubborn love.

5. Really great and wacky friends.

6. A promising career.

7. For the resources to combat clots.

8. Everyday little miracles.

9. The Ateneo winning the 2008 UAAP Men’s Basketball Championships.

10. The Bonfire experience.

11. Old friends finally walking down the aisle.

12. Newly found friends and chika-mates.

13. Birthday gifts like a huge Celine bag and a pair of Via Venetto shoes.

14. Changi Airport and Singapore Airlines experience.

15. For the many times I was humbled by my own mistakes.

16. After a freak accident, my cousin Patrick turned out pretty okay.

17. Swimming with the Butandings without a life best on.

18. Meeting 5 - year old Gab in school and claiming that I am his future wife.

19. Seeing my baby nephew, Miguel smiles at me.

20. Wedding of Alvin and Christine cum Kaka gathering.

21. The 18 books (just finished Breaking Dawn around 2am December 31st) I’ve finished this year!

22. For the many unguarded moments.

23. Christmas party of Imaj. Super fun!

24. 11 pages of handwritten letter from US.

25. Unexpected email messages from long lost relatives, classmates and old friends.

26. Facebook!

27. The many movies I've seen this year.

I raise a glass of margarita for the year that was and the coming year. Cheers!

Monday, December 8, 2008

The Pacman Show



Like most Filipinos, my man and I cheered for Manny Pacquiao, with the rest of everyone who stormed National Sports Grill in Greenbelt 3 yesterday. After the 10am Sunday Service, we hurriedly went to the said place to watch the fight. The place was rocking with fans from all walks of life. Never mind if only a handful got to comfortably sit and drank beer while watching the game. We (Hon and I) for instance, sat on the rails just to have a good view of the game. Imagine that!

I never liked boxing but for some reason, this Pacman made me want to watch him fight Oscar Dela Hoya. Maybe because I liked the idea that he’s the underdog tackling the Golden Boy and that the fight was coined as the Dream Match.

From what I’ve heard and read, Oscar Dela Hoya is some great fighter but I was a little dismayed with his performance. He ended up being Pacquiao’s punching bag. I am no boxing expert but from what I’ve seen yesterday, he was no match for Pacquiao.

Much was expected from Dela Hoya and sadly, he did not deliver well. I was pretty stunned at how our very own stopped his opponent from glowing gold. Pacquiao was just too fast for Dela Hoya, he was simply the better fighter yesterday. It was a mismatch, in favor of the smaller guy.

I may not have clapped and yelled the hardest, unlike my man who almost lost his voice from shouting and chanting “Manny! Manny! Manny!” like the rest of the crowd, but Manny Pacquiao’s win made me feel extra proud about being a Filipino.


Hindsight


"But even without this disaster brought about by greed and capitalism gone wild—we would still have troublous times ahead. Just remember this — we are now ninety million; some 10 year ago, more than half of our grade school children stopped schooling at grade 5 — we now have millions of young adults illiterate and ill trained for any job which modern industry demands. Our natural resources are depleted and they are not renewable. It is not just physical poverty which condemns us to penury — it is poverty of the spirit, the endemic corruption, the gross and obscene irresponsibility of our elites which will bring about the implosion that will destroy this nation — not the ongoing communist rebellion or the Moro separatist impulse."

- F Sionil Jose

Monday, December 1, 2008

Twilight



At 25, I shamelessly join the bandwagon of teenagers (and their Moms) that is hooked to this Twilight saga. Due to this constant prodding of a girl friend based in New York, I saw myself gave in to this almost endless nudging – head to a local bookstore and got hooked to Twilight. I have the books – all of them!

Under normal circumstances, I am no fan of these blood-sucking creatures. Having read Interview with the Vampire (published in Rolling Stone) of years ago, I know I will never like vampires but not until some months ago.

A Mormon Mom based in Arizona, Stephenie Meyer - who for some reason has this overly flair for words, wrote the book. I swear! I have never read anything before that can ever beat the cheesy lines in this book that for a while made me want to puke. No kidding.

Twilight is not about vampires and werewolves; instead it is a teenage love story of a vampire and a human being. Expect a lot of kissing in the book but no sexual intercourse (Edward is a 107 year-old vampire!), so I guess it is safe for teenagers to read the book but still with some parental guidance – what with the gory fighting scenes and parents should also warn their kids about wanting to be ridiculously bitten by a vampire and have him eternally – never mind if that means dying.

My first meeting with Edward Cullen was worthy of the Greeks, although I know a number of girls drooling over Jacob too. He was beautiful and really took my breath away. I’d definitely want him to be seating beside me in all my subjects in school! His character made me want to become my younger self – screaming my lungs out at the sight or thought of this guy that caught my attention.

Bella Swan, to me, is the typical outcast in school that caught the most sought after boy’s attention – not because she was that pretty but he craves for her blood. She was clumsy, pretty in her own way and is the perfect catch for Edward Cullen – her parents were divorced, Mom remarried and her Dad was a little distant. In her teenage mind, all she ever has is Edward, who constantly fights his desire to suck Bella’s blood and kill her.

And so, I was pretty excited to watch the movie adaptation… I did. Twice!

Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen may not be the guy I had in mind but he was great as Edward. He was always Cedric Diggory to me but not until I’ve seen him in the movie. He has this stare that if I were Bella, I’d melt a thousand times or probably shrink ala Ally McBeal. Despite being a vampire (he and his family are vegetarians), he looked pretty safe to me – I didn’t see any of his fangs. Did you notice how gorgeous he was when he got out of the car, sporting a pair of wayfarers? I’d love to bring him home and introduce to my folks. And boo to his make up!

Kirsten Swan wonderfully played Bella Swan. In fact, she was almost everything I expected Bella to be – only that she was not that clumsy. Although I can hardly relate to her, I know what it’s like to fight for something you hold so dear – sometimes, to a fault. Edward is her first love; so we expect her to throw everything away for the sake of this love – even if that means her own death.
Billy Burke was super funny with his portrayal as Charlie Swan (Bella’s Dad). He reminds me of those Dads (mine included) who act silly when boys “take away” their precious daughters.

I did enjoy watching the movie – as it was able to beautifully capture most of the important scenes from the book. They did a great job in minimizing the cheesy lines from the book and I would love to have seen the characters grow in the movie, the way they did in the book – but I know that you cannot “explain” everything in the movie with that 2- hour airtime. And if I may suggest, they need a better make up artist. The Cullens are just ridiculously effing pale!

While waiting for the next movie adaptation, I will let myself get lost in New Moon.