One of the many things I will always be thankful for is that I was born at the time when to talk is accepted and it does not hurt that I was raised by such wonderful couple who taught me to value relationships, not to lie and encouraged me to express - among others.
Last night, I had a quite long one-on-one session with my Mom - and it was terrible, I had to share something very personal and invited her to pour some wisdom that time has ripened. In between my words, were sobs and hiccups. She did not talk much, she just listened patiently and made me feel that she's all ears. What stunned me is that, she talked and hugged me like she's not my Mom (I mean this in a very good way). She did not show wrath or any negative vibe towards my offender - instead, she reminded me that we all make mistakes and such mistakes can cause other people to get hurt. Sad, sad process but that is the world and we make a difference by changing how we react.
Unbelievable.
After that talk, I prayed so hard that may I be given the courage to face this. You see, I have been betrayed so many times already and I was pretty much convinced that it will be hard for me to trust again. But He is God. I mean, nothing is impossible to Him - we just have to ask. I did and He answered. The experience was more than what my limited mind can ever fathom.
I woke up today feeling so loved and blessed. How can I not forgive those who have offended me big time when I was forgiven and saved first by JC?
Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many time shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?" Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.
- Matthew 18:21-22
Last night, I had a quite long one-on-one session with my Mom - and it was terrible, I had to share something very personal and invited her to pour some wisdom that time has ripened. In between my words, were sobs and hiccups. She did not talk much, she just listened patiently and made me feel that she's all ears. What stunned me is that, she talked and hugged me like she's not my Mom (I mean this in a very good way). She did not show wrath or any negative vibe towards my offender - instead, she reminded me that we all make mistakes and such mistakes can cause other people to get hurt. Sad, sad process but that is the world and we make a difference by changing how we react.
Unbelievable.
After that talk, I prayed so hard that may I be given the courage to face this. You see, I have been betrayed so many times already and I was pretty much convinced that it will be hard for me to trust again. But He is God. I mean, nothing is impossible to Him - we just have to ask. I did and He answered. The experience was more than what my limited mind can ever fathom.
I woke up today feeling so loved and blessed. How can I not forgive those who have offended me big time when I was forgiven and saved first by JC?
Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many time shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?" Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.
- Matthew 18:21-22
