With me being an obvious crybaby, I am often accused of never heeding His help and answer to everything I ask Him. I blame myself primarily on this, I was never too vocal about my faith because I would always let my life do the talking for me.
I am not the type who would brag about how strong my faith is when I know I am bound to falter at times. I try to be the obedient daughter I can possibly be but time and time again, I would commit a mistake no matter how hard I try - because I am human and am not perfect but it in His loving grace that I am lovingly saved. All men have fallen short and that it is by His grace alone that we can contiue to come to Him that He may wash us clean.
He alone can save us - not even our earthly parents.
Life has been extra diffucult for me the moment I have accepted Him as my personal Lord and Savior. And this did not only happen to me, it happens to everybody who has accepted Him. Christian life is not difficult for it is almost impossible.
It is sometimes almost impossible for me not to get irritated everytime I would be cornered in the same old pattern, same old question about me allegedly never talking straight to Him about my struggles. They don't even see me pray or ever talk to Him because I do this privately not for public consumption.
We are all created differently, this should be obvious by now. I take on my struggles differently from others - which I supposed, is so hard for other people to accept. I am just very different in a lot of ways - people may not always understand this but its enough for me that at least the closest in my strings know me (my sisters, most especially). What is helpful for me may not be helpful for others, what works for me may not for others.
What strikes me most though is people always have this certain notion about me without even really trying to see the whole me.
Oh well.
I just realized, this is Earth and not Heaven.
I am not the type who would brag about how strong my faith is when I know I am bound to falter at times. I try to be the obedient daughter I can possibly be but time and time again, I would commit a mistake no matter how hard I try - because I am human and am not perfect but it in His loving grace that I am lovingly saved. All men have fallen short and that it is by His grace alone that we can contiue to come to Him that He may wash us clean.
He alone can save us - not even our earthly parents.
Life has been extra diffucult for me the moment I have accepted Him as my personal Lord and Savior. And this did not only happen to me, it happens to everybody who has accepted Him. Christian life is not difficult for it is almost impossible.
It is sometimes almost impossible for me not to get irritated everytime I would be cornered in the same old pattern, same old question about me allegedly never talking straight to Him about my struggles. They don't even see me pray or ever talk to Him because I do this privately not for public consumption.
We are all created differently, this should be obvious by now. I take on my struggles differently from others - which I supposed, is so hard for other people to accept. I am just very different in a lot of ways - people may not always understand this but its enough for me that at least the closest in my strings know me (my sisters, most especially). What is helpful for me may not be helpful for others, what works for me may not for others.
What strikes me most though is people always have this certain notion about me without even really trying to see the whole me.
Oh well.
I just realized, this is Earth and not Heaven.
