If only I could find a way to take a peek of what's in store for me down the road, I'll know that me waiting in vain will be more bearable.
I have been in this waiting game for 4 years now - it has become a burden for me over the years but as I grow older, I have realized that for awhile it is also beneficial for me. I would almost always find myself asking and trying to decipher what's going on and why on good earth did I end up like this. Please don't miscalculate me, I also chose to be here but you have to understand that I am human and waiting can sometimes be such a pain - most especially if you don't know if 'tis worth it.
I can be a pessimist prick because its almost innate to me to be such a worrier but I have managed to pull through and have seen the brighter side of things. And I would almost caught myself daydreaming of series of events I know will never happen to me - or so I thought.
Or maybe I am just being too smart a person that I have lost my essence.
For months now, I have been trying to change my do and just stop caring at all. And I tell you, I am being good at this game already. I have started pulling myself through from all the drama thrown on me and for once in my life, I will just stop caring for those who does not even give a damn about those who lovingly wait for them.
Everyday is a gift in itself - why should I waste my time crying over irreparable damages?
I have been in this waiting game for 4 years now - it has become a burden for me over the years but as I grow older, I have realized that for awhile it is also beneficial for me. I would almost always find myself asking and trying to decipher what's going on and why on good earth did I end up like this. Please don't miscalculate me, I also chose to be here but you have to understand that I am human and waiting can sometimes be such a pain - most especially if you don't know if 'tis worth it.
I can be a pessimist prick because its almost innate to me to be such a worrier but I have managed to pull through and have seen the brighter side of things. And I would almost caught myself daydreaming of series of events I know will never happen to me - or so I thought.
Or maybe I am just being too smart a person that I have lost my essence.
For months now, I have been trying to change my do and just stop caring at all. And I tell you, I am being good at this game already. I have started pulling myself through from all the drama thrown on me and for once in my life, I will just stop caring for those who does not even give a damn about those who lovingly wait for them.
Everyday is a gift in itself - why should I waste my time crying over irreparable damages?
