I Am Sorry

I am sorry -
For writing about me.
Such undertakings;
Jubilance;
Lifelong journey.

I am sorry -
For daring to blaze this to the world.
My intention is good;
I just want to express;
And be taken seriously.

I am sorry -
For wearing my writer's hat.
I have embraced writing since 5th Grade;
It has saved me many times;
Even from those who "vow" to love me.

I am sorry -
For being such an anticlimax.
Its not innate to me to grab attention;
I hope you know that I side on a clean slate, always;
My lips are sealed but my writing hands are not.

I am sorry -
For this is the only way I know how to express.
History can tell that when I utter, I am bound to be silenced;
I just yearn to receive what I deserve;
Listen intently and not just hear me;

I am sorry -
For I never met what is expected.
We define waiting differently;
I was trained to express and to never suppress;
I write whatever my lips cannot utter.

If somewhere along the lines of my writings I have offended you and caused you pain, my sincere apologies.