Giggles

And then she giggled. Suddenly, I am the happiest person on Earth.

5 Loaves and 2 Fishes

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

Amazed

Coming from dust;
Born in an imperfect world;
I, myself is a sinner.

Like what Paul said -
"we do the things we're not supposed to do,
and we don't do the things we're supposed to do."
But with Your mercy and steadfast love, I become your daughter.

For the many times I have failed You,
Still, You did not desert me;
Instead You have shown me Your awesome power.

In times that I cannot be still;
When I had troubles waiting -
You nevertheless remind me how You died for us to be saved.

During the several wee hours -
When Lalaland was yet beyond my reach,
Your words would comfort me; soothes this weary soul.

My soul is sounding with joy;
Saving me from another doom;
You are, indeed, my master shield!

From where I sit now -
I cannot help but be grateful,
And just be amazed by Your grace.

-KLF, 07/15/08

Brighter than Sunshine

What a feeling in my soul 

Love burns brighter than sunshine.

Hand Waving

Thank you, dear L for sending me this apt reminder. 

You truly rock, my friend! \m/

Don't judge

Faith

Motherhood

Motherhood has changed me in more ways than I could ever imagined. 

That very same day that we found out that I am heavy with our first child, my outlook in life has changed dramatically. My views on a lot of things changed for the better that even loved ones noticed.

Suddenly, I have this strong will to improve myself, to become the best version of myself. When not so long ago, I was happy being a better version of me. I was content juggling the role of being my husband's Beb, managing my own team at work, confidant and chika-mate to my friends, a big sister to my siblings and a loving and independent daughter. And I was happy.

And then I became pregnant. After 9 months of waiting, we finally saw and held in my arms the answer to our prayers. I am insanely happy. Tearful happy. Like when you're so overwhelmed that your heart pounds so hard, it feels like its about to explode.

I am happier.

Yanna is nearing her second month outside my womb and she has already given me and my husband sheer joy without even trying. She smiles, shows off her dimples, stares back, lifts her head, makes some "ahhh" sound, smells good that no perfume could ever top - these things and more, make me think that I must've done something great that is worthy of such a reward from the Heavens. 

Being a wife to a wonderful and gorgeous husband while also being a mother is not always a bed of roses. There are some thorns that need to be conquered but that's part of the deal.Yanna, for one, is still nocturnal. She follows no rules (yet) and wakes/sleeps at her own will. Haha. 

Love, I have learned, is not just about the good qualities of a person. It is also accepting the other person's quirks and idiosyncrasies. I knew that I needed to be stretched even further and God knows what He's doing when He granted me my heart's desire.