Love grows in time, so is disgust.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
2009 To Do's
After 2 days of helping out my brother Gello with his school projects and being “stucked” with each other (as he puts it), my almost 13-year-old brother asked me why people bother to make resolutions every year. For a while I was caught off guard because I don’t always follow tradition and making a list of New Year’s resolution is not part of my system – never has been. I just casually told him that people make a list of resolutions simply because they want to change – in whatever way. His brows curved in unison, smiled at me and then he asked, “Can you tell me what are your resolutions?” I went blank for a while and told him that I resolve to make a list of resolutions this year.
My golly! This is so not me but then I figured, what the heck, maybe it is high time for me to change my perspective about some tradition.
Here’s my to do list for 2009.
- Read at least a book per month.
- Add some more recipes in my current list. Cook more!
- Exercise more. Ride my stationary bike every other day for at least 30 minutes.
- Spend more time with my siblings.
- Listen more.
- Trust more, worry less.
- Pray more.
- Shop for items made in the Philippines.
- Bake just because.
- Visit Palawan or Cambodia or Virac.
- Learn new stunts with my skateboard.
- Get in touch with old friends.
- Try to sleep for less than 10 hours.
- Get a new sim and phone. Boo to my effing stalkers
- Write more.
- Buy a new pair of sneakers and/or rubber shoes for running.
- Take more units in school.
- Choose my battle.
- Let God be God.
- Visit National Museum and Avilon Zoo.
- Volunteer again for storytelling sessions.
- Sketch, draw and paint again.
- Meet not so new “characters” from the Good Book again.
- Clean up my files.
- Review my history.
- Learn to let go when I have to let go.
- Dive!
- Relive an old favorite sport, Kayaking!
- Conquer my fears – talk to a clown, have my picture taken with a mascot and hug a dog and/or a cat.
- Wrap my books with plastic cover.
- Eat more fruits and vegetables.
- Drink more water and stop being maselan.
- Try sushi or anything raw at least once.
- Have a date with my folks.
- Treat Mom out.
- Be kind and loving even to the really undeserving.
- Complain less or stop complaining at all.
- Take voting very, very seriously.
- Try hard not to get carried away after reading columns in the Editorial page.
- Read the works of F. Sionel Jose, Nick Joaquin, Willa Cather, Leon Ma. Guerrero, Ambeth Ocampo and Butch Dalisay.
- Conquer Quiapo.
- Watch UAAP Men’s basketball live and cheer for Ateneo Blue Eagles. OBF!
- Say “thank you” often and mean it every time someone compliments me.
- Say “sorry” in an instant and mean it when I hurt someone.
- Take time to read personal email messages (or forwards!).
- Be diligent in replying to people who sent me text messages.
- Get a pretty extra tan.
- Give away old clothes and other stuff in my room that I don’t use anymore. These things can be useful to someone else.
- Visit my old students in school.
- Smile and laugh even more.
So there. Break a leg for me, yes?
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
My Future
The sound of your footsteps
Crawling and walking –
Cheered my spirit.
Your laugh
Sight of your little smile –
Assured me, everything will be ok.
To hear your voice
Your little words -
Keep me strong ev’ryday.
And when you cry
Your eyes and nose turn red –
I morph to be someone super.
And to that,
You’ll always have me
All that I am, I will give.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Change
"Change will not come to us if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek."
- Barack Obama
Friday, January 16, 2009
Scented Papers to Jobs
Old School
In between barter trade of stationary with childhood friends, collecting Matchbox with Macky and playing pog, patintero, Chinese garter with kids in the neighborhood, my youngster days were spent reading and writing a journal. I held both Mom and Tita Kuh responsible for such habits – of traveling through books without leaving my room and jotting down my thoughts.
In 3rd grade, I penned my first short story about siblings – inspired by my love-hate sibling relationship with Macky. In that same year, my little hands found their way using a typewriter.
Hi-tech
My fascination with typewriters was halted as soon as I was formally introduced to a personal computer. Although, I still write on my scented diary, drafting poems and short stories were a lot easier using WordStar and Lotus 123 applications – where you could easily delete and even align your writings.
Once in grade school, we were asked to make a personalized card for Valentine’s Day. My friends and I were surely delighted with how our “own” cards turned out. They were super lovely! And in high school, we were taught about the Pascal programming. Machine problems then drove our logic crazy and I was smitten. I brought with me this “techie” interest in college – by taking up a 4-year Information Technology course.
Studying IT is like being in a different world – such geekiness and sleep deprivation. And since then I never stopped learning and discovering whatever Technology has to offer.
PC to MAC
After years of having PC as a convenient companion, I met a happy accident in the summer of 2005. I was formally introduced to a Mac G4 and immediately I was smitten. It was love at first touch.
Mac is a stunning beauty and really multi-functional. Beauty and brains, I must say. Although it works like a regular PC, its functionalities don’t limit the user to MS Office. It can perform tasks and beyond. It is super best for photos and videos. And yes, I don’t have to worry about virus, effing Trojan horses and downloading anti-virus update every time.
Gates and Jobs
Both of these men made their mark in the Consumer Technology Industry, hands down.
Bill Gates, aside from being one of the greatest philanthropists today, is the genius behind Microsoft (together with Paul Allen, as if nobody knew that). Back in my early days of discovering computer programming, I was in awe of how they started MS Empire. From meeting up with MITS people to discuss about the BASIC interpreter that they’re working on, when in reality they haven’t written a single code yet, partnership with IBM in 1980, launching of Microsoft Windows in 1985 and the rest, as the cliché goes, is history.
Steve Jobs is the genius, considered as the “driving force” of Apple and an innovation machine. Jobs and Stephen Wozniak founded Apple in 1976, with the help of Mike Markkula. Macintosh computers were first introduced in 1984. It was the first commercially successful small computer with a GUI. After relieving off his duties in the company he established, Jobs founded NeXT Computer.
In 1996, after announcing Apple’s interest of buying NeXT and the deal has been finalized of the late, Steve Jobs returned to Apple. And his phenomenal products continue to amaze both fanatics and otherwise.
Stickies
On a side note, after my first “meet” with a Mac G4, I became a Steve Jobs fan overnight and one of those who worry about his current health issues. Yesterday, Reuters headlined that Steve Jobs is to take a leave of absence until June “to focus on his health” and that his medical issues “are more complex” than he originally thought.
Lianna, a girl friend based in NYC and I talked about this “announcement” for almost 3 hours this morning. We were caught by surprise as if the Apple CEO is just some close friend but it felt like he is! We yakked about his health, fashion statement, Apple’s new product and other innovation. You can tell, we almost think alike and worry too much. Haha.
The last time I checked, Apple shares plunged to 7 percent after the announcement – confirming, “investors fear a Jobs-less Apple”.
Oh well. I am just yakking and worrying too much, as always but I am keeping my faith that soon Steve Jobs will be present in the next Macworld Convention or media conference.
I know I am not the first person to say this but Steve Jobs is Apple and Apple is Steve Jobs. Period.
In between barter trade of stationary with childhood friends, collecting Matchbox with Macky and playing pog, patintero, Chinese garter with kids in the neighborhood, my youngster days were spent reading and writing a journal. I held both Mom and Tita Kuh responsible for such habits – of traveling through books without leaving my room and jotting down my thoughts.
In 3rd grade, I penned my first short story about siblings – inspired by my love-hate sibling relationship with Macky. In that same year, my little hands found their way using a typewriter.
Hi-tech
My fascination with typewriters was halted as soon as I was formally introduced to a personal computer. Although, I still write on my scented diary, drafting poems and short stories were a lot easier using WordStar and Lotus 123 applications – where you could easily delete and even align your writings.
Once in grade school, we were asked to make a personalized card for Valentine’s Day. My friends and I were surely delighted with how our “own” cards turned out. They were super lovely! And in high school, we were taught about the Pascal programming. Machine problems then drove our logic crazy and I was smitten. I brought with me this “techie” interest in college – by taking up a 4-year Information Technology course.
Studying IT is like being in a different world – such geekiness and sleep deprivation. And since then I never stopped learning and discovering whatever Technology has to offer.
PC to MAC
After years of having PC as a convenient companion, I met a happy accident in the summer of 2005. I was formally introduced to a Mac G4 and immediately I was smitten. It was love at first touch.
Mac is a stunning beauty and really multi-functional. Beauty and brains, I must say. Although it works like a regular PC, its functionalities don’t limit the user to MS Office. It can perform tasks and beyond. It is super best for photos and videos. And yes, I don’t have to worry about virus, effing Trojan horses and downloading anti-virus update every time.
Gates and Jobs
Both of these men made their mark in the Consumer Technology Industry, hands down.
Bill Gates, aside from being one of the greatest philanthropists today, is the genius behind Microsoft (together with Paul Allen, as if nobody knew that). Back in my early days of discovering computer programming, I was in awe of how they started MS Empire. From meeting up with MITS people to discuss about the BASIC interpreter that they’re working on, when in reality they haven’t written a single code yet, partnership with IBM in 1980, launching of Microsoft Windows in 1985 and the rest, as the cliché goes, is history.
Steve Jobs is the genius, considered as the “driving force” of Apple and an innovation machine. Jobs and Stephen Wozniak founded Apple in 1976, with the help of Mike Markkula. Macintosh computers were first introduced in 1984. It was the first commercially successful small computer with a GUI. After relieving off his duties in the company he established, Jobs founded NeXT Computer.
In 1996, after announcing Apple’s interest of buying NeXT and the deal has been finalized of the late, Steve Jobs returned to Apple. And his phenomenal products continue to amaze both fanatics and otherwise.
Stickies
On a side note, after my first “meet” with a Mac G4, I became a Steve Jobs fan overnight and one of those who worry about his current health issues. Yesterday, Reuters headlined that Steve Jobs is to take a leave of absence until June “to focus on his health” and that his medical issues “are more complex” than he originally thought.
Lianna, a girl friend based in NYC and I talked about this “announcement” for almost 3 hours this morning. We were caught by surprise as if the Apple CEO is just some close friend but it felt like he is! We yakked about his health, fashion statement, Apple’s new product and other innovation. You can tell, we almost think alike and worry too much. Haha.
The last time I checked, Apple shares plunged to 7 percent after the announcement – confirming, “investors fear a Jobs-less Apple”.
Oh well. I am just yakking and worrying too much, as always but I am keeping my faith that soon Steve Jobs will be present in the next Macworld Convention or media conference.
I know I am not the first person to say this but Steve Jobs is Apple and Apple is Steve Jobs. Period.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Not Again
It came to me as an effing surprise.
Something I’d shun for the rest of my life.
It was all dark –
And then I figured, something is wrong.
Again.
I am to be away for a while again –
Shore, not really known.
As a familiar fear cloaks my very self,
I’d put up a brave and silly smile on my face.
Again.
But I know better now,
Adversity will not get the best of me –
Not this time. I will not allow it.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Caterpillar
“I am like a caterpillar in a cocoon of paper; all around me are sketches of sculptures, small drawings that seem like moths fluttering against the windows, beating their wings to escape from this tiny space."
- The Time Traveler's Wife
Friday, January 2, 2009
Équipe Edward
Blame it on the cold weather, I snuggled and spent my Holidays reading and trying to finish the Twilight series before the year ends. Did I say I daydream and is going crazy over Edward Cullen? I feel a tinge of fire burning my ears and cheeks every time I think about the kind of love Edward has for his Bella. I wonder if there is really such an Earthly man (or woman) out there whose love can ever surpass Edward’s. Unselfish, pure and would sacrifice even his own life for the sake of the one s/he loves.
Days before 2009 poked it's promising head, I shamelessly published my semi-obsession on Edward Cullen err Robert Pattinson on my Facebook status. Serious. My closest friends poked me non-stop and messaged me like anything. They say I am going nuts, I say my teenage self is resurfacing. Really, it’s been awhile since I ever had this thing – obsession, childhood fantasies, super kilig moments – whatever you may call it.
I am pro Team Edward. Period.
I had this crazy wishful thinking. I wished I could read minds, be a shield and explain my side to someone just by touching him/her. I think with the latter, it’ll save me nonsense babbling most especially when I am in the verge of shedding buckets of tears or when I am fuming mad. You can tell that when faced with idleness (which is rare), I daydreamed… a lot.
After reading the series and watching the movie twice, I must say that I was pretty much enthralled and my imagination soared like anything. There was something about the story that made me want to finish it in one sitting but I was fighting to do the otherwise. It must be the notion that Edward will do anything for his love or the Cullens’ striking beauty or Bella’s life is constantly in danger or whether Bella will end up with Edward or Jacob. I am not really sure but I got really hooked. To borrow Edward’s lines – the books were like my personal heroin.
The series faithfully chronicles the “strange” love story of Edward and Bella. And despite all the overly florid words use that made me want to puke, I still find the series super engaging. I suddenly become my younger self – vulnerable to anything lovely, who would sweep me off my feet and dangerous.
What I love best about the series is that it presented the many facets of the undead and shape-shifters too. The undead didn’t just have this tremendous desire to drink human blood; we were told that they can discipline themselves – like the Cullens and Tanya’s coven. They have super powers – read minds, foresee the future, calm emotions, make people see what you what them to see and more.
I am so engrossed to this Edward Cullen character (and Robert Pattinson too!). I must have googled him many times over, searched him in YouTube just so I could pathetically see and hear him talk and read any clippings about him. I definitely feel like my teenage self. Crazy and quite embarrassing, I know but I will let myself drool over Edward Cullen...
And this might take awhile.
Days before 2009 poked it's promising head, I shamelessly published my semi-obsession on Edward Cullen err Robert Pattinson on my Facebook status. Serious. My closest friends poked me non-stop and messaged me like anything. They say I am going nuts, I say my teenage self is resurfacing. Really, it’s been awhile since I ever had this thing – obsession, childhood fantasies, super kilig moments – whatever you may call it.
I am pro Team Edward. Period.
I had this crazy wishful thinking. I wished I could read minds, be a shield and explain my side to someone just by touching him/her. I think with the latter, it’ll save me nonsense babbling most especially when I am in the verge of shedding buckets of tears or when I am fuming mad. You can tell that when faced with idleness (which is rare), I daydreamed… a lot.
After reading the series and watching the movie twice, I must say that I was pretty much enthralled and my imagination soared like anything. There was something about the story that made me want to finish it in one sitting but I was fighting to do the otherwise. It must be the notion that Edward will do anything for his love or the Cullens’ striking beauty or Bella’s life is constantly in danger or whether Bella will end up with Edward or Jacob. I am not really sure but I got really hooked. To borrow Edward’s lines – the books were like my personal heroin.
The series faithfully chronicles the “strange” love story of Edward and Bella. And despite all the overly florid words use that made me want to puke, I still find the series super engaging. I suddenly become my younger self – vulnerable to anything lovely, who would sweep me off my feet and dangerous.
What I love best about the series is that it presented the many facets of the undead and shape-shifters too. The undead didn’t just have this tremendous desire to drink human blood; we were told that they can discipline themselves – like the Cullens and Tanya’s coven. They have super powers – read minds, foresee the future, calm emotions, make people see what you what them to see and more.
I am so engrossed to this Edward Cullen character (and Robert Pattinson too!). I must have googled him many times over, searched him in YouTube just so I could pathetically see and hear him talk and read any clippings about him. I definitely feel like my teenage self. Crazy and quite embarrassing, I know but I will let myself drool over Edward Cullen...
And this might take awhile.
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