Around lunchtime yesterday, I received a call from a woman (probably in her 30's) spilling her gathered guts and what she coined as "things I should've known years ago." I knew I was up for something spicy, so I settled myself comfortably on a chair, accompanied by ice cold Coke Zero and readily lend her my left ear.
I gave her the floor wholeheartedly.
It was more than an hour conversation - she did most of the talking and I was a willing captured audience. She said a lot of things that could probably break the confidence I have with the man I have been with for the past 6 years (the first year being his time of pursuit) but she should've done a better job in research - she should know that I am not a gullible person and that am not that easy.
I told her in my friendliest tone ever that while I appreciate her "good intentions", I cannot just accept her side of the story as the truth simply because (1) she is an anonymous caller. She refuses to divulge her real name, I can call her Eve daw in the meantime, (2) she backed off when I dared her to meet up with me so we can talk personally and so that I'll know who I am dealing with. Will you trust somebody who continously hide behind these telephone lines? I won't. (3) This type of calls is no longer trivial to me. I have been running with all sorts of anonymous callers, sending me messages through email, Friendster and even sms since February 2004. And by far, I am winning.
Seriously, I have been trying hard to understand where these boogers err buggers are coming from - is it insecurity, envy, wrath or maybe they just couldn't stand the kind of relationship my beau and I have?
That same afternoon, it dawned on me that my mere existence hurt them - you see hurt people, hurt people. And while they continue to plague me with their misplaced wrath and insecurities, I am armored with a handful of prayer and that man who always asks for my hand.
Life is good and short, let's not waste our time enviously observing other people's lives and guiltlessly try to hurt them. I may not be able to pin these buggers down now but I know Someone bigger than any of us will do the job for me.
Just wait.
