I've been bustling here and there for the past week that updating my tabloid was such a tedious thing to do. I was so engaged to a lot of things but I loved it. I love being busy because I love what I do.
One of the things I've learned this early is that when you love what you do, you can do it for free or you yearn to rest because you need to recuperate and face the same thing over. I mean, life is too short for me not do the things that I am not called for. You know what I mean?
Believe it or not but when I was still a kid, I wanted to be an au pair girl. Yeah, I know it was so run of the mill and even unwonted but let me try, at least, to defend my used to be mediocre head. Well, when I was around 5 or 6, our yaya then was a TV queen that she would let us watch some crappy Tagalog flicks and you know how Tagalog flicks work. And I really dread those days that I would parody those freaking cheap lady thespian. That's the reason why I don't let my siblings watch tele novelas. I'm asking my parents' blessings to remove some Pinoy channels off our cable connection so that my siblings won't be "tempted" to watch shows like Bakekang or some freaking dramatic soap operas - and I am succeeding in 'banning" these channels. I want my siblings to be prepared for the future - and the future has nothing to do, at least for me, with Bakekang. Don't get me wrong, it may seem harsh but I think that we have to invest for the future. For the next generation.
To my 15 year old sister, Mina, I am a bugbear. Can you imagine that? I have become a bugbear to her for not letting them watch tele novelas and some Pinoy flicks. Don't get me wrong, I still love being a Filipina and proud for being one, it is just to my perspective and to what's happening in this country, my siblings have to be equipped as they/we face the many uncertainties. I know that I cannot control their lives, I cannot run their lives for them - but I will not let them face the battle without being well geared up. I love this country and I don't mind teaching in a government for school for kids and the salary was not that satisfying - but teaching kids is really something for me and I found myself so burdened for them, that no matter what, I will not let them face the battle without being well geared up.
Going back to Mina, I talked to her one afternoon and explained to her the many don'ts, why I want them to read books before they go to bed and why it is very important to be great and not live life in mediocrity. She cried and I cried too. Yep, it was an emotional talk but it sure was a fulfilling one. She said, she love me even more now and that she thanks God that they are blessed to have me as their Ate. I thought, I would not mind being their Ate or even my former students' Ate - I know what I am called for and I am in pursuit.
One of the things I've learned this early is that when you love what you do, you can do it for free or you yearn to rest because you need to recuperate and face the same thing over. I mean, life is too short for me not do the things that I am not called for. You know what I mean?
Believe it or not but when I was still a kid, I wanted to be an au pair girl. Yeah, I know it was so run of the mill and even unwonted but let me try, at least, to defend my used to be mediocre head. Well, when I was around 5 or 6, our yaya then was a TV queen that she would let us watch some crappy Tagalog flicks and you know how Tagalog flicks work. And I really dread those days that I would parody those freaking cheap lady thespian. That's the reason why I don't let my siblings watch tele novelas. I'm asking my parents' blessings to remove some Pinoy channels off our cable connection so that my siblings won't be "tempted" to watch shows like Bakekang or some freaking dramatic soap operas - and I am succeeding in 'banning" these channels. I want my siblings to be prepared for the future - and the future has nothing to do, at least for me, with Bakekang. Don't get me wrong, it may seem harsh but I think that we have to invest for the future. For the next generation.
To my 15 year old sister, Mina, I am a bugbear. Can you imagine that? I have become a bugbear to her for not letting them watch tele novelas and some Pinoy flicks. Don't get me wrong, I still love being a Filipina and proud for being one, it is just to my perspective and to what's happening in this country, my siblings have to be equipped as they/we face the many uncertainties. I know that I cannot control their lives, I cannot run their lives for them - but I will not let them face the battle without being well geared up. I love this country and I don't mind teaching in a government for school for kids and the salary was not that satisfying - but teaching kids is really something for me and I found myself so burdened for them, that no matter what, I will not let them face the battle without being well geared up.
Going back to Mina, I talked to her one afternoon and explained to her the many don'ts, why I want them to read books before they go to bed and why it is very important to be great and not live life in mediocrity. She cried and I cried too. Yep, it was an emotional talk but it sure was a fulfilling one. She said, she love me even more now and that she thanks God that they are blessed to have me as their Ate. I thought, I would not mind being their Ate or even my former students' Ate - I know what I am called for and I am in pursuit.
